Steph.Addiction

Posted Tuesday, March 03, 2009 // 3 comments (+)

I can't believe I almost broke down today.
I'm not emo or anything just, plain stress.
I feel like scolding people, I feel like screaming I feel like shouting. I feel like saying out whatever that makes me feel annoyed. I don't feel like myself today..

I had class at 11 o'clock today. Until 12.
Right after that I went for Yukata Girls duty. I sold 5 coupons hooray! ^.^
I wore the bloody hot Yukata for 2 hours. And I'm ok with it, its bearable.
After 2 o'clock I have class until 4.
After my class I had a discussion with my friends until 5.
Came back and wanted to print my script out but the printer aint working.
I refilled the printer and now the ink stain on my hands are still there.
Then I put back the ink and try to print again. But still nothing happenes.
I got really pissed at it so I quickly took my bath and went down for my discussion at 6 o'clock.
I had discussion from 6 o'clock to 8.
I had my half an hour dinner.
From 830 I went for Japanese dance practice until 11 o'clock.
And right now I'm preparing to go down for another discussion again.

I'm trying so damn hard to control my feelings today, I'm trying so damn hard not to scold everyone not so show my angry faces at everyone. When I'm having lots of stress my temper will go real bad.Most of the people will choose not to talk to me and I will prefer them to calm me down or make me laugh actually.I'm trying so hard to think positively and act positively during the discussion. Guess everyone will also have their own stress. And sometimes when you just hold on to it,things will be alright.And if you really couldn't stand it anymore,you'll some sort of like having some psychological problems where you can suddenly cry or laugh or scold.Sometimes I'm wondering whether i'm alright or not because I really can cry or laugh anytime.T.T....

Labels: EmoSteph, Rant