Steph.Addiction

Posted Wednesday, June 04, 2008 // 1 comments (+)

CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Yesterday was waiting for my sister to finish using the comp.. waited for her until 12 am, and was very very tired after the morning jog and i went out whole day too.. not enough sleep recently .. T_T
i wanted to sleep cuz its already 12 am, but my msn still on.. and wanted to chat with my friends..
so i just read newspaper, watch tv and waited.. slept when i was going to bath, slept when i was watching tv.. so you can guess how tired i was yesterday. lol.. and my mood also like lazy lazy.. and not that hyped and happy.. my legs seriously hurt.. the muscles there cramp.. and its because i did not warm up and i stupid la go that thing laaa wtf.. do until so song somemore.. then show off to ah pan saying that its quite fun to play with.. then now my legs like that.. =.='' memang dai sei...
so someone seemed to be moody too.. wanted to find more topics to chat with him.. don't want the whole situation to be like very awkward.. while i was bathing i was quite excited to know that i'll have some fun dota games, fun skyping at night.. but it all turned out to be.......................
with just the few words.. and it seriously hurt.. i don't know why but that kinda feeling is like when i'm trying to be like a damn cheap girl keep on finding topics to chat with andrew, my first ex, wanna get him back beside me and keep on talking non stop.. and his replies are exactly like andrew..that cold that sarcastic that rejecting.. for the first time that kinda long lost feeling came back.. words are like blades, they can stab too.. i became damn angry.. julian asked me to sing in skype, was chatting with him nicely but instant change of tone.. from happy to angry..
i don't feel like replying him.. based on his replies, i don't see any reason why i should continue chatting with him.. and surprisingly, he still can ask angry ady?if he ALREADY knew those words can make someone angry, why he wanna say anyway? i don't wanna play dota with julian cuz i feel like accompanying them.. and wanna watch youtube at the same time, and don't have the confident that we'll own in the next game.. guess its better for me to play dota then.. at least i won't get sooooooooooooooo moody.. offed my phone without replying anyone's sms-es..
off everything and went to sleep.. of course i can't stop thinking about those words.. i even think how i'm gonna react to him the next day.. whether to forgive or not.. but i decided to forgive cuz its not gonna go better if i don't forgive him anyway.. but just... there's still a gap there................
don't feel like replying... don't feel like experiencing the same old thing again... i need some time..