Steph.Addiction

Posted Thursday, April 24, 2008 // 0 comments (+)

I was kinda worried, what is wrong with eXP's new post. and from that post i can see that he's kinda depressed? i don't know whats wrong with him offline so fast. and he said he's sick again. hmmm drink more water lar. haha..you're super weak -.-'' .. then from the post he said he's playing games with my 2 ex-s? wtf? only one okay. well ernest told me, what should i tell exp when he asked me about who am i? should i just say i'm your ex or what? then i said, yeah just say you're my ex lar. -.-'' then he was like no im not going to say that.. because if i said i'm your ex, he will feel a thing. he will feel competitive among us and the game won't be fun. and its kinda stressed to play with ex. wat the hell.. -.-''
so we played soldier td. asked if they don't like ''someone'', ernest said he really don't like him because he talk alot of bullshits and kao my girl (wtf). and eXP said same reasons as him. ohhhhhhhhh.........iiii.......seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...... hmmmmmm.... lol.. so i was kinda mad at him that day because i feel like its all my fault to make all of them get mad at me. ernest is still waiting for me, clement want me to try to accept him, eXP ah erm i don't know. LOL!.. most of them say, being with the one you like, does not need to be together everyday. that' what we called as faith. having faith in each other. well after you tried 2 online relationships, and both last more than half a year, you will be desperate enough to have a real life relationship. so why in internet that's so easy to get a bf or get someone to love you? while in real life its like so hard. i don't even have any damn close real life boy friends..SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! so thats useless for being so ''loveable'' online. hmphhhhhhhh
its something good that there are people who like you and wanna take care of you. but they are all in internetzzzzzz wtf internetzzzzzzz! sounds very foolish to have an online partner lor honestly. after all those experiences that i've gone thru, i'll definitely say NO to online relationship anymore. so who are you going to date with everyday?
your handphone? smsing with your so called online bf? or even bringing your laptop everywhere to chat with your bf? you understand me? why cant i just find someone who is damn close to me, everyday can meet up with him one T_T..... bah let those happen after i enter college :P
so maybe i'll get a melacca bf. who knows? IF someone like me lar T___T..hahaha
lol i sound so desperate to get a bf. but not so fast la.but when things come, its hard to avoid too right? :P.. i'm very shocked of eXP's messages. he thought i'm angry at him. hhaha.. this morning once i open my eyes, i look at the clock on the wall, its 12 am already my god! i didn't know i can sleep this well :P.. i on my phone and saw him apologizing to me ahahahah..
well maybe yesterday i was really kinda pissed because he just tell everything to his blog, as if his blog is alive, and even know how to give responses.. yeah i know, a blog is a place for you to rant. but its like you have no guts to tell someone something you know.. that sounds so coward.. and yeah, that will make a girl get pissed.. lol and he tried to call somemore. no la i'm not THAT angry la kay....!!! so yeah i'm now in real dilemma.. you know, ernest is waiting for me, which makes me feel REAL bad because i don't want any relationship now, and i just won't accept him back. because i really want someone real life la..... i don't want distance relationship and all that..
to be frank, he can be my only one cuz we've been thru so much together liao.. but i don't want everything was forced to be perfect.. i want it to happen all naturally.. and all are like it was meant to be you know? sighhhhhh i've hurt someone already.. T_T
and eXP ar i know how you feel but same thing, i don't wanna engage with anyone right now because yeah its still online and distance stuff laaaaaaaaaa.. clement not to say a thing. lol i dont even like him... i like him as my bro only.. so yeah thats alright... i just hope all of them, will move on.. and why don't they switch their attention from love to elsewhere? guys should pentingkan their career first.. seriously! when you have a good basic, only you have the time to slowly choose a gf ok? and you all know love hurts right.. so i don't wish to make any emphasizes on all these anymore.. i don't wanna keep on explaining why i duwan any bf or watever... i just don't need it NOW, i need it later for sure .. XD.. so all of us are just good friends =)
i was sitting on the bed smsing with eXP and ernest.. then suddenly my sister came in.. i thought its my father.. scared he's gonna scold me for waking up so late but i don't care. as long as i woke up ady ma ^^.. but no.. thats my sister! i saw her face red red like that.. oh yah she got jpj test hor.. then she says : jie... with that mellow expression.. plus a lil bit depression + a lil bit wanna cry expression.. her mouth and nose already like in position to cry, i sensed something dman wrong.. and say oh my god not going to happen for the 3rd time right?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!? damn shock.. then she suddenly say.. : i passed...
i was like WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF YOU SCARED MEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! WTF WTF WTF!!!! lol
yeah i'm rude but i don't care :P i did not say the F word ^^
so we're both super happy lar.. haha no nid to see the DAMN inmaju again.. that really worth a celebration :D ..haha.. and my bro's turn is in the afternoon. so lets just hope for the best for him =) i know you can do it! you're a man!

Moh has been asking me to dota with him since few weeks ago.. hahaha.. always cannot dota one.. cuz he went CC all the time..i on then he off.. so today i say : WE MUST DOTA! and we did it! lol..
we dota-ed 1v1 at first.. then he owning la for sure.. but he's really good.. haha.. din kill me and let me run away so many time liao.. i was using lich and he was using ogre magi..
then we play public games.. i finally join public games! ^^ i cant imagine that i dare to join either.. i say i wanna improve my dota until i went uni one mah :P since now i've plenty of time.. so i use bloodmother.. i thought.. LOL.. it was bloodseeker! i thought its the super super gay hero! but then eh? why is the spider one.. -__________-'' lolz.. first time using that hero, and luckily the descriptions for the skills are brief and understandable.. lol.. and i ks-ed moh few times :P
thanks moh~! hahaha.. but alot of leavers and laggers.. so at last only 2v2.. lol.. and they won!
of course lah they so many leavers.. somemore all get pro items.. damn unfair.. but it was fun =)..
moh is pro lar stop being so humble okay.. just din reach godlike only ma.. aduiiiii..

my brother's back! and he said he passed both.. OMGGGGG the failing curse is finally over until his turn.. hahaha.. he passed one shot!!! my pro brother and sister. hahaha.. =)
really congratz man.. so happieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~! :D

chu~